had to take a break 6

So this week I read and finished this book called 'A Cold Heart' by Jonathon Kellerman because A Gravedigger's Daughter was just getting a little too depressing. 

'A Cold Heart' is actually a murder mystery, quick and easy read, that's about a series of serial murders in LA. That isn't what actually got me interested in these books though. They are a series of books centering around the main character Dr. Alex Delaware. I'll admit, I make fun of all those girls who go goopy over Edward from Twilight. I read some of the first book, and I thought it was awful, and his only appeal appeared to be his eyes or something. But Delaware is my own private Edward, but much more interesting than a goofy fictional vampire! Instead he's a doofy fictional psychologist. However, here are the reasons that he is better than Edward: 1. He's single, and if a fictional character is involved in some great love story, its just depressing because then it really never is going to happen and your memory will constantly be tainted by this other woman who's probably going to end up breaking his heart anyway. 2. He's a psychologist, which automatically means he leads a more exciting life. What does Edward do, chew on cow bones all day? 3. He's an older man. Edward might be 300 or whatever but that's just ridiculous. Okay I'm done comparing fictional characters, but I would just like to say I'm ashamed at the way our generation is so willing to fall into traps set by independent corporations that are merely attempting to feed our brains with mindless trash that is gobbled up by the masses everywhere. 2 snaps for communism. 

good girls grow up so fast 5

In this section of 'Gravedigger's Daughter', Rebecca meets her eventual husband, Tignor. We already know my feelings on their relationship, but I still believe that the way they met is worth a mention. Rebecca is working at a hotel in town, and she's a very handsome woman so she's always being hit on by these creeps but she ignores them. One day she goes to clean a room and the man on the bed looks like he's dead so she steps closer to get a look. He jumps up grabs her and it appears as though he's about to rape her when Tignor, even though she doesn't know him yet, here's her cries from the hall and saves her. Saves her by promptly beating the man almost to death. Does this not seem like the slightest bit of foreshadowing? Why would you even marry a man who had a temper like that, despite the fact that the beating was for a good cause, wouldn't you be a little nervous? Well apparently she wasn't. In fact she promptly falls head over heals in love with him, the way she never has before, and doesn't stop thinking about him until she finally sees him again a couple of months later. Pardon me for thinking that a relationship where he stops you from being raped by another man, is at least a little bit under a dark cloud from the beginning. But many relationships are doomed from the beginning, and we enter them anyway, thinking that it will all be worth it. Like Romeo and Juliet, their parents completely hated each other, which means it will never end well, but they just went ahead with their cow eyes. Or Blair and Chuck from Gossip Girl, who are possibly the most self-destructive, I-am-an-island type people you've ever heart of, but you know they're meant to be together even though they can never be together.... Although Rebecca and Tignor might not quite be to that level, I still don't see the point. 

death 4

Some days you just want to cry, and you're not even sure why that is. This book so far, is like one of those days. Rebecca's life is so sad and depressing and it's not even one reason, it's a bunch of reasons that add up to such a general feeling of doubt and sorrow and all these emotions that make you want to curl up in bed and hide from the world. But this section was the worst. 

Rebecca is now living with only her parents, as both her brothers have run off. One because he attacked a few men around town who had vandalized the family farm with swastikas, and one because he was sick of the abuse that Jacob seems to enjoy raining down on everyone in the family. Her mother has become even more desolate than before, spending almost the whole day in the hose and only showing sparks of emotion whenever Jacob attacks Rebecca. Jacob is a suspicious old man who believes that even his family is possessed by evil spirits, and the rest of the world is conspiring against them. Trust no one appears to be his motto. Are you getting the feeling yet? The setting of their life is a ghost town in upstate New York where all the men are brutish and drunk, and all the women are vulgar and gossipy. Rebecca is outcasted as the 'gravedigger' daughter' and alternatively labeled a Nazi or a Jew. Both intended as insults, but both are incorrect. She has no friends, except for a girl who she then shunned because she found the girl to be almost too kindly. As it appears that Rebecca's life can get no worse, she sees her father buying a shotgun and she has no idea what he intends to do with it because the man is not a hunter. That's where I left off. I look forward to finding out just how much more depressing her life can get. 

It's a very good book.